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I'm in dire need for a new code, anyone willing to spare one? :D
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[25 Feb 2002|06:57am] |
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!! Finally LJ works, piece of shit. It's early and I'm so tired. God I hate school :( I got my music playin though, rock on. So let's see, what'd I do this weekend. Saturday just blew, I did nothing but sleep and fight with my mom. Yesterday I cleaned my room and my brother's room, for two reasons. One of them being to get NFG tickets, woo. Blah I still gotta do my algebra homework. I'm in dire need of batteries for my personal cd player because it sucks going to school with no music. You know I'm so musically obsessed it's discusting. But I can't help it, nor can I explain how much I love it. It's not so much obsessed because that's a teeny bopper word in my opinion...just, filled? Maybe I dunno this is just early morning loser babble. And I do realize that when my alarm went off at 5:30 AM, that I could have gotten up and done my Algebra then, but I forgot. My hair is really curly at the moment possibly because I washed my hair with just conditioner and no shampoo, because there was none. You know I really need a violin, and that sounds so greedy, blah. School = hell but I get to see my groupie so it's good. I've gotta choose a theme for my US History research essay, and I dunno what to pick. It's not that I don't have anything to write about, there's just so many interesting themes in the time period she gave us. Maybe in some weird way I'll enjoy this. My hair feels fucking gross, I'm just realizing that. I guess conditioner doesn't work in cases of no shampoo. Boo :( Alright, time to go get all washed up, bye.
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[24 Feb 2002|11:28am] |
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The CD/song that...
- you listen to while angry: loud stuff. if i'm mad at my mom or i'm being screamed at, i'll put loud violent music on the loudest volume.
- reminds you of your best friend[s]: "cadillac" reminds me of steph because she always sang it.."i love rock and roll" because patty wouldnt stop singing it after we saw the britney spears movie and um i dunno
- reminds you of your family: blah
- reminds you of your childhood: oh god, all those songs they have on those early 90s cds, "wanna be my lover", "it takes two" ohhh my god those memories!
- you listen to while sad: anything by dashboard confessional <3
- you listen to while happy: all my poppy punk stuff woo
- you listen to while restless: um
- you listen to while lonely: um
- reminds you of someone's death: i dont think anything
- you sing in the shower: i dont sing in the shower
- you dance to: anything
- reminds you of school: i guess "untitled" by finch because i always play that on the way to hell
- reminds you of your first love/crush: um
- reminds you of an event: "the innocent" by gc, mest and goldfinger
- you would want at your funeral: ohh my god, thats weird as fuck since last nite i was thinking about "husam husam" by the anniversary to be my song they play at my funeral because thats possibly the most beautiful fucking song ive heard yet
- cheers you up: poppy punk ; nfg, mest, rufio and my whole list of rockin rockers
- depresses you: dashboard music
- you will never grow tired of: those ones i play for hours on end, but not overplay, just play i guess
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[23 Feb 2002|05:34pm] |
 I am A Dingle Berry .
Dingle berries... we all know one. clinging to that parent or significant other for dear life.. basing every discussion on the opinions and actions of that one special person. the mama's boy (or girl) of the shit family, but Dingle berries do have a dark side and are known for their jealousy and sudden bursts of anger and violence though the life of a Dingle berry may seem meaning less, it does have its upsides... usually death.
What Kinda Shit Are You?
Haaa, so I'm a dingleberry. It's funny how cute they made it look. I'm fucking starving and I have a gross taste in my mouth. I'm watching this movie on hbo2 with some scottish guy, he sounds just like Ally, he's kinda cute. I'm only watching it to hear his sexy accent. Well I went to bed, slept for about 4 hours. I'll probably get the whole "are you depressed" lecture from my mom. My answer: "no"
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[23 Feb 2002|01:01pm] |
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Hey Mercedes - 11 to your 7 |
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Well, today started off wonderful. It's funny too since when I woke up, I was laying on my bed thinking about how my dad has been so much better since his new medicine and all. Anyway, today I'm the bad guy since I don't like our dog. Let's remember, he almost tore my throat out, but I'm supposed to like him. How come my dad can dislike who he wants but when I dislike someone he likes, IT'S A PROBLEM. Fucking hypocrites. I'm a bad daughter because I sit in my room all day and listen to music and "don't bother with the family" What am I supposed to do? My parents are always so busy busy busy. What really pisses me off is when my mom gets on the phone to my grandmom or aunt and is running her mouth off about how bad us kids are, and of course they go on as well but it's all good when they need help lugging televisions up steps and hooking them up. Oh yea, I'm out fucking every guy, getting pregnant, I do drugs, I drink and I have a criminal record. That's right. I'm pretty damn good compared to some teens today but they just wont see that. I'm a damn prisoner in my own house. I wish someone would call or something, I want to go out and get the fuck out of this hellhole for a day. And my sisters poserness is discusting. It's just...I can't even explain it. Someone kill me.
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[22 Feb 2002|10:41pm] |
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Take the Bear Quiz by Krysten
OMG how cute is that bear lol, these tests are always so right about me
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Basic Stuff
1. Name: colleen
2. Natural Hair Color: brown
3. Hair Color Currently: brown, i cant dye my hair til im 18 >:O
4. Eye Color At Birth: blue green
5. Eye Color Currently: same
6. Height Currently: 5'0
7. Glasses/Contacts: glasses, hello nerd
8. Birthdate: Ja9/29/85
9. Sign: libra
10. Current Age: 16
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1. First Name: colleen
2. Middle Name: marie
3. Last Name: not telling
4. Nicknames: col, leena
5. State: PA
6. Age: 16
7. Sex: girl
8. Birthdate: 9/29/85
9. Astro Sign: libra
10. Siblings: 2 sisters 1 brother
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[21 Feb 2002|07:36pm] |
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1. Do you own any plaid clothing? no i don't think i do
2. Do you own Converse shoes? no i don't got money, i might get imitation converse, go me
3. Do you own Saucony shoes? no
4. Do you own old school Nikes? no
5. Do you wear tight pants? no
6. Is there more than one zipper in your pants? yea this one pair has like 20 pockets
7. Do you know what a squatter flap is? no
8. Do you own a messenger bag? yes
9. Do you wear your messenger bag across your chest? yea
10. Do you own braces? no
11. Are they braces worn anywhere besides the mouth? uh
12. Do you have short, shaggy hair? no i look dumb with short hair
13. Does your hairstyle exceed a height of 3 inches? yes
14. Would you classify your hair as a deadly weapon? possibly
15. Do you think mohawks are "neat"? stephanie wants to give my sister a mohawk
16. Is your hair black or red? no
17. Do you have a favorite brand of hair dye? no im not allowed to dye my hair
18. Do you own a bandana? hell no
19. Do you wear earplugs? no
20. Are you amused by safety pins? oh yes
21. Do you use duct tape as a sewing substitute? i dont even have duct tape
22. Do you own one or more objects with studs or spikes in them? yes
23. Do you own one or more articles of clothing from Dogpile, Lip Service, or Tiger of London? i dont think so, i dont look at brands
24. Do you enjoy leopard print? not really
HABITS/BELIEFS:
25. Are you disgruntled (having a general hate for everything)? not really
26. Are you an anarchst? no
27. Does the American flag anger you? no
28. Are you "working class"? no
29. Do you dislike "preps"? sometimes
30. Do you dislike Hot Topic? yea, they're too overpriced, fucking jerks ripped me off for my pink shoes, they can die
31. Do you smoke cigarettes? no
32. Do you smoke cloves? no
33. Are you a thin waif? i guess
34. Are you vegan/vegetarian? no
35. Do you think meat is murder? sorta
36. Do your nighttime activities usually involve drunken underage vomiting? no
37. Have you ever slept in an alley or park? no
38. Do you wash your hair less than once a week? um no lol
39. Have you ever gone a week without a shower? i used to never shower
40. Have you ever been avoided due to your odor? probably
41. Do you know who Jack Kerouac is? no
42. Do you like Mr. Kerouac? ghfdh
43. Should Mumia Abu-jamal be freed from prison? i forget what happened with him
44. Are you a member of the Makeout Club? i dont think so
SPEECH:
45. Do you say "rad"? sometimes
46. Do you say "rockin'"? all the time, i say "killer" alot though
47. Do you say punk "rawk"? uh no
48. Do you spout the word "oi" at random times? no
49. Do you say "punk's not dead"? no
48. Do you say "punk is dead"? no
Last and least important-MUSIC:
51. Do you like bands with "."? um lol
52. Do you like bands with "theory" in their name? the juliana theory, apex theory (ok band)
53. Do you like bands with "the"? the anniversary, the juliana theory, the icarus line, the starting line
54. Do you ever precede your own name with "the" at the beginning? no
55. Do you like bands with the F word in their name or album title ? who cares
56. Do you think "Christian punk" is an oxymoron? who cares
57. Are Blink 182 fans "posers"? most of them are, old school blinkers arent i think
58. Do you have frequent debates over what exactly constitutes a sellout? well, not really
59. Have you ever brought the headlining band food? no
60. Do you have show flyers affixed to your walls? no i put that stuff in a box
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[19 Feb 2002|07:05pm] |
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So today was boring but it did go by quickly which was great. I've got a test on act II of Macbeth, which I obviously didn't read. I just hate english, why must we be forced to study this useless shit. Steph wasn't in today and missed her, especially in religion when we had some stupid powerpoint thing to work on in the computer lab. My spanish teacher is now wearing a hat, I guess she's lost more hair. I feel so bad for her, she's great and it's amazing how high her spirts still are. I can't wait until my next show, what an addiction. A high. "Husam Husam" is possibly one of the best songs ever, it's soooo pretty. My nails have grown so long and I'm proud of myself for leaving them get that long, only the left hand though. I'm weird indeed. I barely got any sleep last nite due to my sister coughing so much, she needs to take medicine or something. I can't believe February blew by so fast, oh well, the closer to the summer, the better. I think I'm done, so bye.
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[18 Feb 2002|11:22pm] |
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I really hate Alex, why do I fucking talk to him? I'm "violent", VIOLENT, I am so not violent, I'm as far as they get from violent. I'm shy and I rarely even talk. I avoid fights as much as possible, but I'm violent. I hate him. Why must he make me feel like fucking SHIT, make me confess to things that aren't even true just to shut him the fuck up, he's mister know it all, he's a rude boy. Just GO AWAY. My dog is barking and between the shit from Alex, watching people cry on tv and the dog I could cry myself. I still have homework to do, Algebra worksheets, History outline and translations for spanish words. Nothing much happened today, just alot of singing and laziness. I'm so so tired, and i've got to pee but the bad dog is downstairs. The feeling of love is great, it's a high. To have cuddles and things of that sort is possibly the best thing you could experience. I want it so badly, forever. I'm tired, tired, tired and tired of school I wish it'd go away. I'll finish my homework, I'll get it all done.
the conversation if you'd like to read
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[18 Feb 2002|02:40pm] |
i finally found out how to do that lj cut
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[18 Feb 2002|12:55am] |
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DAMNNNNNN!!!! I'm just getting home about 20 minutes ago, missing Agnes by 3 minutes, go me. What a fucking cool nite. So we left for the show around 6 to pick up Stephanie, it took FOREVER to find her house, but we eventually found it. We got there and hung out for maybe 15 minutes until the bands came out. First someone named earshot came out, they sucked, they fucking SUCKED, moving on...next apex theory came out, I think it was them, now they rocked out hardcore man. The lead singer was neato looking with his white hair and all, and the guitarist wasn't bad looking either. I think local h was next, FUCKING BLEW, just horrible. Then glassjaw, they were ok. Then Alien Ant Farm came out, rocked oh yes. I only knew the 2 songs, lol but still it was great. Fucking headbanging and thrasting like a lunatic, oh these are the things that make me happy. I lost my hair thing so like my hair is still hanging right now. There was this loser standing in front of me, he was about 50 years old, with a fucking cane smoking weed like crazy. He was really beginning to scare me, I think he was drunk. He kept looking at me weirdly. Then someone was handing out earshot cds and me and steph chucked ours, boo we hate them. We sat for maybe 20 minutes total and my legs felt like they were going to break at the very end. They were shaking with no control. So it was all over and I called my mom, and we waited outside in probably 5 degree weather, with no jackets or anything because AGNES told me that we'd be soaked with sweat. Anyway, we're standing outside and this guy is sitting in a car and sees us shivering and he's like "hey girls, wanna sit in my car?" Hell fucking no, i'd rather freeze than be raped, obviously I told him no. So we're freezing our god damn asses off when some adorable as hell, scruffy hair boy comes struttin along with his neato nfg shirt, when my sister says "HEY CAN I HAVE YOUR SHIRT", he comes over and is talking and takes off the damn shirt. So he's standing there, with no shirt, freezing, and my sister has his shirt wrapped around him. How fucking sweet can you get. So we chatted for a few minutes. He was just rocking and I should have given him my email because he had email addresses written up and down his arms, for a minute I thought it was some concentration camp thing. So my mom got there, I tried to make my sister hug him but she didn't so me and steph did, we appriciated his niceness. Steph was fun and cool and I love her, she rocks out. We got free apex theory stickers and cds, steph got 32 stickers, oh yes. I don't think anything else comes to mind, except extreme tiredness. I got an email with the subject "farm sluts", and I still need a hairband and I think I should put my stub in my box. Two more weeks til saves the day - fuck yeaaaa. Okay, I think I'm done, rock out little people! 8)
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[17 Feb 2002|12:48pm] |
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FIRST & MIDDLE NAME: colleen marie
NICKNAMES: leena, col
HAIR COLOR: brown
HAIR LENGTH: medium
EYE COLOR: blue-greenish
HEIGHT: 5'0
BIRTHDAY: september 29
LOCATION: philadelphia, pa
SHOE SIZE: 6
ZODIAC SIGN: libra
SCHOOL: lfhs
GRADE: 11th
SIBLINGS: megan, rebecca and matthew
PETS: lots
FAVORITES
GENRE OF MUSIC: punk, emo, techno, metal, trance, jazz
MUSIC ARTIST: rufio, rammstein, no doubt etc etc
MOVIE: dunno
BRAND: none
SONG: lots
WORD: whore
FOOD: fries
DRINK: juice
NUMBER: 7
CANDY: reese's
TV SHOW: er
FAST FOOD RESTARAUNT: wendys <3
NAIL POLISH COLOR: black
SUBJECT IN SCHOOL: spanish and chemistry only because it's a fun class with my groupie
RADIO STATION: i hate the radio
ANIMAL: allllllll
STORES: uh
SCENT: fart
ICE CREAM FLAVOR: vanilla
QUOTE: shut up
HOLIDAY: um
DAY OF THE WEEK: saturday
MONTH: july
DISLIKES
GENRE OF MUSIC: pop, rap
MUSIC ARTIST: nsync
MOVIE: uh
ACTOR: uh
BRAND: gap
SONG: uh
WORD: uh
FOOD: uh
DRINK: uh
COLOR: uh
NUMBER: uh
CANDY: uh
TV SHOW: uh
NAIL POLISH COLOR: uh
SUBJECT IN SCHOOL: uh
ANIMAL: uh
STORES: uh
ICE CREAM FLAVOR: uh
QUOTE: uh
DAY OF THE WEEK: uh
MONTH: uh
DO YOU...
THINK YOU ARE ATTRACTIVE: god no
THINK YOU SMART: no
THINK YOU HAVE COMMON SENSE: yes
THINK YOU ARE POPULAR: no
PLAY SPORTS/ WHAT KIND OF SPORTS DO YOU LIKE: no
BELIEVE IN ALIENS: sure
LIKE SITCOMS: uh
HAVE A BOYFRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND: no
FANTASIZE ABOUT THE SAME SEX AS YOU: uh
THINK YOUR STYLE/FASHION IS COOL: no
HAVE ANY PIERCINGS: no
DO DRUGS: no
DRINK: no
HAVE A CRUSH: oh yes
HAVE SEX: no
HAVE YOU EVER
SMOKED: no
DRANK: no
WENT BUNJEE JUMPING: no
HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER: yea
BROKE THE LAW: i guess
RAN FROM THE COPS: no
KISSED A GIRL: dgdfg
KISSED A GUY: dgdfg
LAUGHED: uh yea
BEEN SARCASTIC: all the time
BEEN EMBARASSED: yes
CRIED: yes
WANTED TO DIE: yes
BEEN SCARED TO HALF DEATH: uh
THOUGHT ABOUT BEING GAY: lol um
STOLE ANYTHING: yea
MADE YOURSELF THROW UP: yea
THOUGHT ABOUT OR TRIED TO KILL YOURSELF: yea
WENT SKINNY DIPPING: no
BEEN IN LOVE: i think
HAD A MILK MUSTACHE: no
GOTTEN INTO A FIGHT WITH YOUR PET: yes
HAD A DREAM ABOUT SOMETHING WEIRD AND IT HAPPENED THE NEXT DAY: yes
STALKED SOMEONE: not really
HAD A MUD BATH: no
WHAT COMES TO MIND WHEN YOU HEAR
BLUE: sad
SOCKS: rockin
MIRROR: ugly reflection
CRACKER: cheese
COW: heffer
FRANCE: wee wee or something
JELLY: nasty
FISH: stinky
BOOGER: yummy
LAST PERSON WHO
EMAILED YOU: uh
YOU SAW A MOVIE WITH: the girls
YOU WENT TO THE MALL WITH: uh
FRIENDS
LAUGHS THE WEIRDEST: me i think
LOUDEST: steph
MOST QUIET: me
COULD BE A MODEL: uh
THE FUNNIEST: ash
THE MOST BORING: me
MOST ATHLETIC: none
THE HOTTEST: uh
MOST TALLEST: uh
MOST SHORTEST: me
MOST CRAZIEST: uh
MOST SKINNIEST: uh
FAMILY
DO YOU INTEND TO GET MARRIED: probably no
WHAT WILL YOU NAME YOUR KIDS: dunno
WHAT DO YOU WANT YOUR HUSBAND TO BE LIKE: uh
WHERE WILL YOU LIVE: dunno
RANDOM
WHO ARE YOUR GOOD FRIENDS: my gruopie
WHOSE YOUR BEST ONLINE BUDDY: the people i talk to everyday
HOW MANY EMAIL ADDRESSES DO YOU HAVE: 2
IF YOU COULD GO BACK AND CHANGE ONE THING IN TIME, WHAT WOULD IT BE: alot
WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE: i dunno
WHATS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR: heights
HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE ON YOUR BUDDY LIST: 31 + 39
HOW MANY PEOPLE DO YOU HAVE BLOCKED: no one
THE 3 BEST INSIDE JOKES YOU HAVE: um um.."quarters", "hornin it up" and um.."YOU DON'T KNOW ME!"
WHAT KIND OF CAR DO YOU WANT TO DRIVE: suv
WHAT KIND OF SHOES DO YOU WEAR: shoes
WHAT KIND OF CLOTHES DO YOU SLEEP IN: clothes i wore that day
WHAT KIND OF CAR DO YOU HAVE: none
WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU CALLED: patty
WHERE DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED: not a church
HOW DO YOU EAT AN OREO: dip it
IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE WISH, WHAT WOULD IT BE: a boyfriend
WHO IS THE HOTTEST GUY/GIRL IN YOUR SCHOOL: a few people
IF YOU COULD CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOURSELF, WHAT WOULD IT BE: be pretty
WHAT DO YOU REALLY DISLIKE: stuff
LAST FOUR NUMBERS IN YOUR PHONE NUMBER: 9145
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current mood: blah
current music: nufan "turning japanese"
current taste: brownies
current hairstyle: ponytail and messy
current dress: clothes from last nite
current annoyance: no clothes
current smell: uh
current game: pool
current thing i ought to be doing: getting cleaned up
current windows open: aol, aim, winamp and pool
current desktop picture: nothing
current favorite group: lalala
current book: fghfgh
current cds in stereo: none
current color of toenails: nothing
current worry: if steph is mad
current favorite celeb: hfghfg
current hate: u
..today have I..
Smiled?: yes
Laughed?: yes
Cried?: last nite
Bought something?: movie ticket
Danced?: yes
Were sarcastic?: yes
Talked to an ex?: no
Watched your favorite movie?: no
..the last time..
Last book you read: uh
Last movie you saw: crossroads
Last song you heard: 'turning japanese'
Last thing you had to drink: orange tang
Last time you showered: yesterday
Last thing you ate: brownies
..do I..
Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: no
Have sex? no
Sleep with stuffed animals?: yes
Live in the moment?: uh yea?
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: no
Play an instrument?: no
Believe there is life on other planets?: yes
Read the newspaper?: no
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: yes
Believe in miracles?: no
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yes
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: i guess?
Consider love a mistake?: sometimes
Like the taste of alcohol?: no
Have a favorite candy?: yes
Believe in astrology?: yes
Believe in magic?: no
Believe in God?: no
Go to church?: no
Have any pets: yes
Do well in school?: no
Go to or plan to go to college?: no
Wear hats?: no
Have any piercings?: no
Have any tattoos?: no
Hate yourself?: usually
Have an obsession?: no
Have a secret crush?: yea
Collect anything?: stuff
Wish on stars?: no
Like your handwriting?: no
Have any bad habits?: yes
Care about looks?: yes
Believe in witches?: no
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[17 Feb 2002|11:28am] |
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So last nite was crazy. Me and the groupie were all gonna go to the mall, but then that didn't work out because we had no ride and the one girls mom wouldn't let her take the bus. Then steph got grounded because she was 'bitchin' so she couldn't go anywhere. All plans were canceled when patty called asking if I wanted to go to the movies with her and ashley, so I said yea sure. We saw crossroads, it wasn't that great, it was alright I guess. The only thing that was cool is the guy was quite sexah, oh and the popcorn rocked. Me and my sister couldn't stop saying how good it was. What a bunch of dorks. I did feel guilty leaving steph behind, I hope she isn't pissed at me. She's coming to the show with us tonite, it should be great. So anyway, the movie is over and we're waiting outside for my mom to pick us up when I hear all of this change hit the ground. Turns out the payphone spit out all of this change. So I say hey you guys that payphone just spit out change. Right away ashley and my sister run over to it, grabbing the money that fell out like they've never seen money before. They are practically humping the phone and then again, more change comes flying out. My sister is screaaaaaming like a psycho, and there must have been 100 people standing around, so everyone was looking. She got about 5$ out of that sucker. Way to earn a living. On the way home, we stopped at the playground at my sister's demand, to see if she could see her big crush or whatever. We hung there for a while, and got on the swings. I haven't been on swings in...ages. There were a bunch of skateboarders there and pyros and it was cool I guess. I got hit in the head with a rock and that hurt. I had my eyes on this one boy but turns out he's 13, that sucked he didn't look 13. He was adorable but then again he was the one who threw the rock. We were trying to get my sister to hook up with her crush but she chickened out and really didn't do it. He did kiss her on the ear, "missed" as my sister said. We left the playground because people said the 'polak posse' were coming with guns and bottles, so we went to the pizza place and hung out there for a little bit. Now I'm hungry, I didn't eat because I had hardcore indigestion and well didn't have any money. We walked back to pattys and I called my mom to come get us because we were tired. I played with her acoustic which was nice but I had no clue what I was doing so yea...Anyway, today is my AAF/Fenix TX show and I'm damn excited. I'm starving right now, my sister put brownies in the oven but said they'd take an hour? I guess I'll make meself a pizza, yummins.
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[15 Feb 2002|07:27pm] |
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So hello. Right now I've got "end of the world" in my head, just the second verse though. I've had it in my head since oh maybe 4th period. Who knows where that came from. Six o'clock tv hour don't get caught in foreign towers slash and burn return listen to yourself churn locking in uniforming book burning blood letting every move escalate light a candle *something* renegade stear clear a tournament a tournament a tournament of lies offer me solutions offer me alternative and iiii decline. Most of that was probably wrong but oh well. School was eh, ok. Third period sucked because it made me depressed. I miss grandpop, lots. Patty was sad and overwhelmed with school and I can surely say I know how she feels. School sucks and it makes you want to die. It's amazing how we're forced to go to school when alot of kids kill themselves over it. They don't matter though. So I crawled into bed last nite at an early time; 8:30. What a loser, all that because I didn't have a valentine. I'm easily depressed if you haven't noticed. And easily I fall in love, which really really sucks because obsession and heartbreak are tagged along with it. The batteries are wearing out in my cd player, boo hoo. Off to hunt for more batteries. Oh time for some little poem I love so much:
there is a pretty girl
on the face of the magazine
and all i see is my dirty
hands turning the page
little breasts attached to
skinny ribs and hungry bellies
determined legs;
persuasive swing careful hands
she stands a greater threat to
herself than the cigarette she consumes
lovely isn't it? Jewel wrote it. I love her <3 I could go for a good back massage right now, el back is hurtin. I'm dumb, I have lots of homework this weekend all because I didnt do any of it this week. Homework sucks. Oh and I still never figured out what that asian food was. No one comments on my entries, rude assholes.
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Like omg! It's like Valentine's Day and I got like tons of Valentines from like all the hot boys and stuff, so totally rad girlfriend. NOT! Valentine's Day blows so bad, and for some reason this year its terrible. Maybe it's because I'm older and should have a mate? I don't know but it's really getting to me today, I could go bury my face in a pillow and cry. Oh yea, let's pretend a bear is your valentine, good going there. My make believe world to induce make believe happiness just won't cut it much longer. We have these candy grams at school. I got 4. Everyone else got bunches. I dunno, maybe I'm a selfish asshole. That really upset me, I dunno why. Anyway enough with the depressing bullshit. I change the colors because I felt like it. Oh and the font since it was verdana 7 for about 2 months. Everyone is using arial 9. This used to be the mandatory font back in the day of my doing zines. Cheap shit. Well I'm done bye.
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